There’s still good stuff.

And I CAN find joy in things.

I love playing the piano, watching birds, sunshine, warm weather, thunderstorms at night, my girls making me laugh, date nights with Mike. Good stuff still happens despite grief!

I love cooking, gardening, a clean house, CUPS upon CUPS of COFFEE, sleeping, reading, napping, journaling, taking walks, MUSIC, seeing friends and my family. Life is SO good.

My sister told me she heard that Luke Bryan uses the light bulb analogy after losing his brother and sister. Before they died, the bulb was at 100W but after they died, it went to 75W and that’s all it can possibly go up to. So even when you’re having the BEST DAY, it’s only at 75W. I’ll try to have a 75W day each day.

Today, my calendar says this:

But God has promised strength for the day,
Rest for the labor, light for the way,
Grace for the trials, help from above,
Unfailing sympathy, undying love.

Annie Johnson Flint

There’s little things that bring joy and goodness and light and HOPE and comfort throughout the day. I just need to find it. And I need to surround myself with that as oppose to the opposite. That’s why God is so great to follow. God is the definition of life and light and love and hope. I want THAT in my life. I want to run far, far away from the darkness. I’ve been wrapped up in too much of THAT for too long. That was the worst experience I’ve ever had in my 36 years of life. And that’s about all I can handle at this point, to tell you the truth.